It has officially been 1 month since I was laid off due to Covid-19. It has taken me a while to write this blog post. I have been processing, scrambling, and pivoting. My world has drastically changed.
I am in the process of moving out of my beautiful apartment - my home. I am negotiating my lease termination and finding a storage unit for all my furniture. I never thought this would happen. I am very sad.
I have tried to remind myself that I did not lose my job to my performance, but due to a global paramedic. It is still hard. The stress, panic, and uncertainty and have taken a toll on me. I tend to turn into myself when I am dealing with a lot of stress & anxiety. I do not reach out for help.
My identity is very much tied to my job and career. I feel like I have failed – at what, I am not sure. It is just so frustrating to feel like you are going backward and not forward.
I shared I had lost my job on IG Stories and I got so many messages from people in the same position. People who were also feeling vulnerable, anxious, and scared. You made me realize I am not alone in this journey.
Remember, real life rarely looks like an Instagram feed. It rarely shows the more vulnerable moments. The hard moments. The heartbreaking moments. This is a real pandemic with real-world consequences. It is happening to us now. All I can do is keep myself afloat as I figure out my next move.
so what is next for me.....??
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Hi Whitney, this post resonated with me as I’m going through the same thing. I’m so proud of you for telling your story as there so many people such as myself dealing with the same thing. My identity has always been tied to my job and career and without it, I feel lost but I’m learning that it’s okay to be anxious sacred and sad. Please have compassion for yourself and know that something beautiful will come out of all of this. Sending you healing and prayers. You’re not alone. Sending you virtual hugs!
Lahlah thank you so much for the sweet message and virtual hug! It was very needed. I am so sorry to hear you are dealing with a similar situation. I know we will come out stronger on the other side, but its a journey. Keep me posted on your journey and sending you lots of positive vibes
xo,
Whitney
Thank you for your transparency!!!! It simply shows that bloggers are real people and go through the same struggles as their followers. I would love to read more about your journey to adjusting to your new life and how you’re progressing. But that’s great that you have support from your family. I had the same when I didn’t have a place to stay for a few months. This will make you stronger in the long run so keep the faith! (I’m not sure if you’re a Christian lol)
Thank you so much for your sweet comment! I will def be sharing more about my journey with job loss! I am very lucky to have my family!
xo,
Whitney
I think that your post can help so many other people who feel that they were left in a corner. You are very inspirational and I am so happy I came across your blog post.